The last train out of my heart.

The damn ganjiong moment when I had one stamp left. I was practically rushing down the stairs just to get my last stamp loh. 7 stamps in two days man. Me & my friends are awesuuuuuum. (:

OKAY.
So even though I spent most of my today sleeping, I'm feeling pretty restless now. So after this post, it's the sack for me! (:

The day after I posted about how excited I was to get the Starbucks planner, I got it! Sucha happy kid then.
First entry was Ahseow's birthday. And it's pretty empty now. Wanted to fill it in sometime around tonight? BUT I REALIZED. There was no November for me! So too bad lah. Lol.


And guess who got it the day AFTER I got it?
Haha.

I REALLY DONT WANT TO CALL HIM AHSEOW ANYMORE. Sounds damn cinapek. Very demeaning for him also. So.
So.
Justinseow. So boring.
Justinseow. -.-

I'm sorry this is a really bad picture of you. LOL.

Picture I snapped of the snail I saw right outside my house hours before my Chinese trial paper.
Was talking to a friend; being separated by that imaginary line, never knowing what the future held for us. And we look back now, and we wonder. And he thanks God for that miracle. Huh? (:

xxx

Okay, so I'm having this thing right now normal people call THE BLOGGING MOJO. It's been going on for a few days; having phrases & sentences being recited in my pretty bunny head, wanting to open this blank page but never having the chance to. Lol. But here I am now! Was supposed to finish one more set of Modmaths test but I think I'm done for the night lah. Ice-blended Mocha Praline Frappucino (my new love! only because it's MOCHA with a hint of chocolate syrup.), impossibly cold air that makes us all freeze without a huge-ass sweater/jacket & Hazelnut Hot Chocolate for your chilly hands to achieve thermal equilibrium with. Hah! All these makes me even more ready for bed by the end of the night.

SO MUCH FOR THE SNOW RUMOUR A FEW DAYS AGO, BTW.
But Winern! Haha. Winern! Ask her to look out the window cause there's SNOW, and she'll really do it. Hahahahaha.


Starbucks is well becoming my second home. Makes me feel all the more like SPM's over and only having Christmas to look forward to! This time last year, I was already sorting out Christmas tunes lah. But. But. But. ONE STEP CLOSER TO STARBUCKS 2010 YEAR PLANNER. Joy. :D And no, I don't want anyone offering to give me their cards/planners. I want to earn one myself! FOUR MORE TO GO. Hehe.
Cause me & Ahseow have this infinite dream where we will look all grown-up & important carrying that planner around! HAHAHAHAHA.

Okay, so I'm supposed to be on the phone now, doing my daily thang! But I want to blog and there's a time to be selfish. WHICH IS NOW. I don't really have much to say, I guess. Just that I spend so much time outside these days it's a lil' weird, seeing how it's SPM and all. I don't even do it on normal schooling days!

I guess it's good to get grounded, gain your parent's trust by going to the library every single day, and then come back at night from all the studying, and instead of being yelled at, you get SYMPATHY. Practically drinking medicine soup everyday now! Something I never bother with on normal days but aiyah, Mommy worry now, MUST EASE HER SOUL. (:

I think I'm talking too much.

This is Shenghui.

This is Ahseow's work of art.
As taught by FHM. :D
I think by the time SPM ends I'll have this whole collection of his Family Guy art lah! Got two already liaos. Lol.

AND I GOT PICTURE OF ME STUDYING ALSO.
Lol. But it's in Andrewpaul's BB lah.
But if my Mommy, Daddy see liao sure sooooper proud one.

I've also been eating random food all over.
Been having weird cravings for Cina coffee shop food.

Ending this post now.
BWAAAAI-BWAI.

We've all been here before;
Here, there, does it really matter?
To give up your heart up to hands that can't even manage themselves.
To throw yourself so deep into the depths of the valley,
thinking you'd be stuck there forever.
Alone.
To believe.
To trust.
To believe in second chances & more.

And where does this take us?
Really.

Sometimes I swear I grow, and grow, and grow, and disappoint myself even more with each day that passes. But if there's one thing I'm fairly sure about is that I haven't regretted anything I've ever done in a really long time. Everything we do comes with consequences that may/may not make us feel like dumb fucks. But I never once left a memory behind stuttering about the things I wish I'd said.

I guess what I'm trying really hard to say now (and keeping it as close to my present life as I'd like to!)-
Sometimes we do things that don't seem like the right thing.
Sometimes the wrong things seem like the best decisions you've ever made.
Sometimes the most impossible people are the people that are going to put you up so high you would feel as if you're walking on clouds.
Sometimes sorry's don't cut it.
Sometimes the sweetest lips can taste so extremely bitter at the same time.
Sometimes the person you love most leaves you stranded in that very place you hate.

But it's okay.
It's really okay.

Cause sometimes.
They come back.
You just gotta keep faith.

Gosh. I swore off this shit a long time ago! Was supposed to be all perky and all that. Lol.
Never intended my come-back post to be like this.
It was supposed to be like BAAAAAAAAAAAAM! THE ROCKSTARBUNNY IS BACK. V2, baby! V2.

Graduation was two days ago.

All these while I've been wondering whether I would EVER find that dream dress of mine for prom. Unlike most people, I had what I wanted in my mind already. It'd just be really difficult to hunt down the one that looked exactly as it appeared in my head.
Even considered wearing a tux instead a few days ago! And I was browsing random pictures of people I don't even know on Facebook yesterday, when I came to this sudden JOLT. You know when an idea just comes to your head and you can actually PICTURE a light bulb going DING! in your head? Haha. I had that.

And I'm not gonna tell you guys what I'm gonna wear! Y'all just have to see it for yourself on the 16th of December. :D As long as my laziness doesnt get the best of me and stop me from getting it. Gosh. I wish I still have the time to get it done. And if I do, haha. I don't need to worry about anything anymore.
Must.
Must.
Must talk to Momma soon. (:

Fair & Lovely, huh? Lol.
This boy's even fairer than me!
He's also the boy whose been sitting next to me for every examination this year, the guy who let me cheat off his OMR sheet even though he's always being really paranoid about it, the guy who reminded me during our last Bio paper for Trials that this was gonna be the last time we sat next to each each other during exams.
*BIGSNIFFFFS.

For the first time since... ever, I'm uploading all the Graduation pictures on my Facebook first instead of my blog! All of them are up. Except for the one of me in the stupid Afro wig lah.
You know those aunties with curly maggi mee hair back in the 80s.
I LOOKED LIKE THAT LOH.
With very, very fair skin & a sick grin. Lol.

Ahh, shucks.
I wanted to post the link to the album here but you wouldn't believe Facebook lah! I've never mass-uploaded like that and it kinda sucks loh. Even when I reduce it to three at a time only. Bugger. I'm using the simple uploader now.
Damn waste of time. -.-

Will update on the link later.
Going back to sleep first before I head out.
Bye!

Just like a year ago, I'm here trying to save myself.
And maybe, I may not suck as much as I did the last time. Just gotta keep reminding myself who & why I'm doing this for. A couple more days left to proving myself, a month till my life takes that drastic turn of change. Cause our story's so bright, the city lights unchanging in the night; I can see your core when you tell me how lit your life is.

So, I originally had so much stuff to blog & talk about but I guess when you stop blogging for a while, although it really adds up, by the time you face this empty box, everything just sorta flows out from your head. Lol.

• What I've been doing?
  Watching one too many movies in the night, finally settling down and coming in-sync with my MOTIVATION, jamming with the band, and doing the weirdest shit I never thought I would ever come close to doing.
  
  
• Speaking of motivation, I've got a new golden rule (if that's what you call it? wait, I go Google!). Aww, shucks. It's GOLDEN WORD. New golden word. (:
  
  
  MOTIVATION
  COMES
  FROM
  WITHIN
  
  Fine. It sounds more like golden PHRASE.
  Walau. It's like once you achieve this right, you can do anything already one! I dont even ask people these days for motivation anymore, don't even TELL people when I'm studying (which is what I used to do a lot in the past as if they're my own personal Twitter. :D). In fact, I've even managed to put my ALL together and get up from this bed just to go run.
  I seriously damn bad-ass awesome. Lol.
  
  
• With all the shit going down that has got to do with prom, you can say I'm pretty much unfazed by now. But if there's one thing I really DO care about, it's my performance with The Barbie Patrol Squad. The day I could finally sing Sweet Child O' Mine was honestly one of the BEST days I've had in a really, really long time! You should've seen the way the guys were whooping and all loh. From skipping the verses & high notes, to singing & reaching everyone of them! I DOOOOPER PROUD. :D
  
  On the day of our 'photoshoot'. Check out his guyliner!
  Super Glambert, right? Kudos to me man.
  
  Justin hiding in his drums! Lol.
  
  
• Still planning on waiting till after my Chinese paper on the 14th to get my prom dress/heels/everything. I know it's super late lah but knowing me, I know I can do it one lah! I shop fast, I shop efficient. Lol.
  
  
• Found this on someone's Facebook.
  Think it's super funny lah.
  
  Click to enlarge.
  You WONT ever regret. (;
  Makes me feel so much better after that stupid match last Sunday.
  
  
• And if you've been reading my Twitter (not that I've been really efficient when it comes to updating.. but still!), what's with the helicopters flying around in the middle of the night with spotlights underneath them man. Super scary loh. Like got felon on the loose liddat. -.-

Anyway, ending this with these two videos.
KevJumba may not have made me swoon this time, but he's Still. So. Goddamn. Adorable. Would. Love. To. Marry. Him. :D
(and the guy who washes my plates for me. lmao.)

This may/may not make your day.