The last train out of my heart.

Graduation was two days ago.

All these while I've been wondering whether I would EVER find that dream dress of mine for prom. Unlike most people, I had what I wanted in my mind already. It'd just be really difficult to hunt down the one that looked exactly as it appeared in my head.
Even considered wearing a tux instead a few days ago! And I was browsing random pictures of people I don't even know on Facebook yesterday, when I came to this sudden JOLT. You know when an idea just comes to your head and you can actually PICTURE a light bulb going DING! in your head? Haha. I had that.

And I'm not gonna tell you guys what I'm gonna wear! Y'all just have to see it for yourself on the 16th of December. :D As long as my laziness doesnt get the best of me and stop me from getting it. Gosh. I wish I still have the time to get it done. And if I do, haha. I don't need to worry about anything anymore.
Must.
Must.
Must talk to Momma soon. (:

Fair & Lovely, huh? Lol.
This boy's even fairer than me!
He's also the boy whose been sitting next to me for every examination this year, the guy who let me cheat off his OMR sheet even though he's always being really paranoid about it, the guy who reminded me during our last Bio paper for Trials that this was gonna be the last time we sat next to each each other during exams.
*BIGSNIFFFFS.

For the first time since... ever, I'm uploading all the Graduation pictures on my Facebook first instead of my blog! All of them are up. Except for the one of me in the stupid Afro wig lah.
You know those aunties with curly maggi mee hair back in the 80s.
I LOOKED LIKE THAT LOH.
With very, very fair skin & a sick grin. Lol.

Ahh, shucks.
I wanted to post the link to the album here but you wouldn't believe Facebook lah! I've never mass-uploaded like that and it kinda sucks loh. Even when I reduce it to three at a time only. Bugger. I'm using the simple uploader now.
Damn waste of time. -.-

Will update on the link later.
Going back to sleep first before I head out.
Bye!

Just like a year ago, I'm here trying to save myself.
And maybe, I may not suck as much as I did the last time. Just gotta keep reminding myself who & why I'm doing this for. A couple more days left to proving myself, a month till my life takes that drastic turn of change. Cause our story's so bright, the city lights unchanging in the night; I can see your core when you tell me how lit your life is.

So, I originally had so much stuff to blog & talk about but I guess when you stop blogging for a while, although it really adds up, by the time you face this empty box, everything just sorta flows out from your head. Lol.

• What I've been doing?
  Watching one too many movies in the night, finally settling down and coming in-sync with my MOTIVATION, jamming with the band, and doing the weirdest shit I never thought I would ever come close to doing.
  
  
• Speaking of motivation, I've got a new golden rule (if that's what you call it? wait, I go Google!). Aww, shucks. It's GOLDEN WORD. New golden word. (:
  
  
  MOTIVATION
  COMES
  FROM
  WITHIN
  
  Fine. It sounds more like golden PHRASE.
  Walau. It's like once you achieve this right, you can do anything already one! I dont even ask people these days for motivation anymore, don't even TELL people when I'm studying (which is what I used to do a lot in the past as if they're my own personal Twitter. :D). In fact, I've even managed to put my ALL together and get up from this bed just to go run.
  I seriously damn bad-ass awesome. Lol.
  
  
• With all the shit going down that has got to do with prom, you can say I'm pretty much unfazed by now. But if there's one thing I really DO care about, it's my performance with The Barbie Patrol Squad. The day I could finally sing Sweet Child O' Mine was honestly one of the BEST days I've had in a really, really long time! You should've seen the way the guys were whooping and all loh. From skipping the verses & high notes, to singing & reaching everyone of them! I DOOOOPER PROUD. :D
  
  On the day of our 'photoshoot'. Check out his guyliner!
  Super Glambert, right? Kudos to me man.
  
  Justin hiding in his drums! Lol.
  
  
• Still planning on waiting till after my Chinese paper on the 14th to get my prom dress/heels/everything. I know it's super late lah but knowing me, I know I can do it one lah! I shop fast, I shop efficient. Lol.
  
  
• Found this on someone's Facebook.
  Think it's super funny lah.
  
  Click to enlarge.
  You WONT ever regret. (;
  Makes me feel so much better after that stupid match last Sunday.
  
  
• And if you've been reading my Twitter (not that I've been really efficient when it comes to updating.. but still!), what's with the helicopters flying around in the middle of the night with spotlights underneath them man. Super scary loh. Like got felon on the loose liddat. -.-

Anyway, ending this with these two videos.
KevJumba may not have made me swoon this time, but he's Still. So. Goddamn. Adorable. Would. Love. To. Marry. Him. :D
(and the guy who washes my plates for me. lmao.)

This may/may not make your day.

If you guys think being stuck at home ensures you a life free of dramarama & having nothing to worry about except when to sleep/eat/study, think again.

Not very different lah!
In fact, I think I have less to worry about when I'm spending more time outside doing nothing.
And it seems like eversince I got grounded, every time I step my foot out of the house, I end up hurting myself.

First, I dropped the padlock on my foot.
Now I have this tiny lebam right at the middle of my foot.

Then, I go library to STUDY.
Go study tau.
Go study also like kena curse liddat.
Was at the kids corner trying to pull the bench out from underneath?
And I just rammed my toes into it lah.
I feel quite stupid now.
But that part of my toe that kenaed?
NOW BLUE-BLACK LIAO.

Pain pain.
I need someone come kiss kiss lol wtf.
Hahahahahaha.

Study hard, SPM people!
Cause even I'm doing it already. (:
But then again.
Naomi said Addmaths is not counted as studying.
Yes, that's the only thing I've been doing.
And a lil' bit of Physics, and a teeny weeny bit of Chemistry, and a lot of boys.
Lol.

I'm trying really hard here to work with you. What with the limited workspace that resembles the exact size of my table in school; I can't be bothered to shift things around to make space, won't bat an eyelash to all the junk that managed to pile up in a week. And with the EVEN limited space on the paper I have to try to squeeze everything into, I'm 5% nearer to falling apart together with my ever sweet-smelling hair. Cause I want to make it perfect. So I trace it all with my fingers, I hold on to my black G2 as if holding on for dear life, and I press the tip onto the paper, hard. And after an hour, my thumb looks pruned like how they become after 30 minutes in the shower.

But I still haven't gotten past a page.
And I've come to the conclusion that I REALLY do not suck.
Cause how can one person become completely stupid in a subject they're moderately good at?
It's the book's problem.

Yes, it's the book's problem.
And the fact that I've become so obsessed with doing everything the right away is sucking the life outta me.

THIS IS WHY I HAVE TO BE LET OUT FROM MY OWN HOUSE.
But things are getting better in a lot of ways lah!
Deteriorating in a a lot of ways too but to hell with that.

The aforementioned shall remain..
unmentioned. (:

I still love you, Addmaths.



And it's now just as if I'm reading these words off the page, just like I'm reading it off your thoughts.